Judas Is Innocent!

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True story. I found the secrets of the universe. You won’t believe what they are.

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Our Lady Peace – Somewhere Out There by Nate_Perro

Things have changed some since the advent of the last of my visions, which I will call the Event. Mostly I notice it as food tasting differently since then. There remained after I had gotten discharged some beef jerky, and I used to love that stuff, but after, not so much. It tasted somewhat more artificial. And then there was this ramen (not in the packet, but a restaurant), and I told the waitress that I didn’t like their new recipe; the noodles were more pasty than I remembered. But Cup O Noodles, that stuff tastes a little better than it had been. And crab, too, I think. So what does this mean? I have been thrown out of whack. But in a good way. It just manifests weirdly, which one might expect. I wonder what else is different, that I haven’t noticed yet…

It is to be feared that the most of us know not how much glory may be in present grace, nor how much of heaven may be obtained in holiness on the earth.

in my blood is the secret written
like a whisper upon the heart of the wind
it cast me from the upper night
my pride was laid waste, destiny’s joke
as the enterprise of chance placed all the pieces
i to enter into a peace strange with oil
a force of light whose wings were not for fashion
and numbers flash by, dense in meaning
tomorrow is preparing to be dangerous
there is no luck, only the mercy of the tide
and am i saved, washed in starlight
but caught in the backdraft of destiny’s wind
fires everywhere i look with my ruby eyes
to travel where no light is familiar
i have come to the source of myself
the same place where destiny is worded
like a whisper upon the heart of the wind
in my blood is the secret written

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1. me
2. philip k.
3. johann
4. mary mog
5. moses
6. elijah
7. jeanne
8. mary mag
9. judas
10. peter

Max Ernst: The Equivocal Woman

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the blur rushes past, what is coming? what has gone?
the mystery unravels from one undone cord
to blow right through the roof of night, beyond
i have outrun the curse, and exhale
the madness that almost comes, lurking overhead
i have faith only in that it all will make sense one day
otherwise are my prophecies child’s wonder…
we stumble into the lap of fate
to curse that which ends up saving our lives
and that madness which threatens like a brooding sky
i will withstand whatever wind and rain
for i am born from above, and light is not so feeble
the mystery that returns back from the farthest edge:
whispers about love from beginning to end
there is no death except we choose to die
the only thing to do in the face of it is to stand
to be one with that light from where is home
to find not just something worth dying for: but to live

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This all started on a typical Friday night. I was a college student looking for a good time, but what I found instead was beyond a battle royale: I ended up that night having a vision of an INFINITE light, and drafted into service in the War in Heaven. A war in eternity, a war between angels, and more. Needless to say, this changed my life. Like Jeremiah, sometimes God turned me into a babbling fool, like I were “a strong man overcome with wine.” These days, that means I was institutionalized more than once. The action sequences of the War came and went for 25 years, and it all only started to make sense at the end. This is what I’ve learned along the way.

You know the story, right? Lucifer, out of the sin of pride, tries to take over Heaven from God’s rule, and is met in war by the Archangel Michael. It is spoken of briefly in the book of Revelation: “And there was war in heaven: Michael and his angels fought against the dragon; and the dragon fought and his angels, And prevailed not; neither was their place found any more in heaven.” But it turns out it’s not so simple as just that. I’ve come to find out what it is the War really meant to all of us, everyone who’s ever lived, the reason why all things are the way they are. And once one sorts out what the consequences of the War turn out to be, everything in the whole wild world makes perfect sense. This is what I tell.

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the doubt that claws at my spirit
singularly to hinder the miracle
i step aside to let it through
for i am done with you, my mote
though of iron you were made
i needed just a gesture from above
and you were wisps of powder
ultimately, an illusion, and an end

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2 Children Are Threatened by a Nightingale

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I read a book recently, or more accurately, skimmed a book recently, called Judas. In it, the author goes into scholarship that seems to point to the conclusion that Judas Iscariot did not “betray” our Lord, but rather “handed Him over”. It is not a small thing, that difference. It is the difference between guilty and innocent, damned or saved. It is reflective of the view that I was told of in my visions; it seems to have legs, after all. I wonder how the whole myth of the betrayer came to be, if there is, even now, so much evidence that Judas is in fact clean of all blame. And I wonder what it will take to clear his name, dragged through the mud lo these many centuries.

I feel, at least at times, that I am no longer of this earth, that I am a true stranger to the waking world. It manifests most intensely when I am with people who’ve known me for a long time, family, and a friend or two. Those who knew me before all the real excitement in my life got started. I think I feel like Frodo after he destroyed the One Ring, and can’t seem to be at home in the Shire anymore. I am changed. This is certain. Even the food seems to taste different. But is there hope, can I be human again? Not just like before January, but like before 1991, or 1988, when the whole trip started? Who knows? One journey ends, another begins, thankful for the ride, make the best of whatever comes…